My last days in B’lore and work pressure still surmounting !!! Have tasted professional life, a new experince and can say that i m gonna cherish this. The industry outside is not that easy, but that’s what we are supposed to be groomed up to. To work on sharp deadlines, to do all the things, whether they are in ur domain or not, to sit in office till 11-12 just because you don’t wish to hear comments from ur next boss. Man, this is different hemisphere !!!

This time, when i will return to institute, i will be knowing the real meaning of college life and my friends out there. I missed my school buddies, when i went to college and now after one year, m gonna miss these great collegemates. Life moves on, i would be busy in my own things but in some dark corner of heart, there will always a sweet memory and pain that’ll remind me each and every day that i miss u friends. U r great fellows and its hard to find such friends, love u all !!!

This post is meant exclusively for my supposed to be “final presentation”. I had that yesterday, after waiting and loosing my patience with each passing moment(my presentation got delayed by one day). It was before my two mentors, Arun Pingaley and Ajay Raina. For both of them, i will simply say that they are must meet guys in your life, an inspiration.

Before the presentation, i happen to loose a bit of my temper.

I told AP, “Sir, I have to give the presentation today only. I am hanged up since last two days and literally doing nothing except for preparing the preparation” .

AP shot back in a mild sweet tone, “That’s your problem. Y r u not doing anything since last two days? You are supposed to work here, rt ???”

I was at backfoot, at the similar time, admiring the answer and the man.

So presentation scene started. After arranging projector and all, i begin.

“Goodevening Sir, My presentation is divided into two parts. The first part deals with the development and proposal of a framework for risk solvency in Insurance Sector…….”

“Pawan, a sec … “, I heard AP.

AP : “I don’t want anything i.e. being developed and proposed by you. I want what is going on in the world. Give me that,k ”

Myself:”Sir, i meant that only, i have studied various works and i tried to take best practices out of those only and then i put them into document, there is nothing out of my own mind, except for formatting and desgin.”

<Imagine, this is how my presentation staretd>

The ppt continued. In my presentation I put a beautiful, complex, multicolored diagram and put the heading “Risk Based Sovency Framework in Insurance” and put a lot of arrows, flowcharts, connectors and what not into it.

“It looks good, did u made this?”, AP asked.

I answered: “Yes Sir, its being proposed and it’s there in crude form in one of the papers i got. I just tried to put it in a better way.”

“But there’s not supposed to any designing competition, i couldn’t understand, y u put in such beautiful design.”

I kept silent.

Presentation moved on. I was putting all my skills, keeping my cool, all the good postures into, but the topic is too broad and mentors are too sharp that all mine was dwarfed.

After 30 mins, after some vigorous discussion over insurance sector, its financial balance sheets, liabilties, assets, a sudden question comes, “Do you know anything about Insurance?”

What the heck ???

“Sir, i know everything that is related to my project and that is put in my report and presentation.”

“OK, continue.”

It was such a stress testing, that i was really loosing the patience. Man, the two ppl sitting there continuosly taking out some weird meanings of the jargons put into the presentation. It was not a presentation, but an interview, for in presentation they would have been interested in knowing, what is the work done?? They are not interested in knowing the real thing but beating the bush around. Fine, here i should say that i exaggarated the thing. They are man of such high caliber and eagle eyes that for them whatever i did in three months can be a thing of 3 weeks only and they would have been testing me that how far can i bear this resistance.

Again after say 1 and half hour, a scene came.

I was asked certain question, not recalling exactly what was that ??

I answered something and there are certain times, when your words are caught into your mouth. It was like that. I was answering something and before letting me finish, my words are caught and i am getting trapped in my own words trying to explain the things, rather my words and the new words were perhaps were creating more confusing. I was not speaking those but i have been made to speak those.

“Pawan, tell me ~!@!#!@#$@#$@#$#@%@#$% “.

I tried to speak, caught in between, a second question comes out of my words, i explained, those words get caught, i again explained,i again get caught, and this time i didn’t explain but i tried to explain.

Then next question comes into the air, and i got silent. No reply.

Another question, no reply. Another question, this time very very easy one, again no reply.

He smiled…. “OK, no more. U continue.”

I continued …

Finally i came to main part of my work and that was the main part. My implementation work. (I have already wasted some one and half hours since then). I develpoed an internal model for risk based solvency based on a research paper. While i was explaining this, how did i develop the solution, a certain mockery came. “How can one do that, this is what we are here for.” I said, this time very firmly, “let me explain, and we would be seeing, how i did that?” I keep on explaining my things.

The project working model came to display. And it was this time, i threw away myself. I took the charge. I started explaining, without least bothering about the interventions. The questions were still there continuosly, but i was answering them in pretty lesser and stronger words. No explanations of my words are offered.

When the display of my working model was on screen, i was explaining each tab, formulas used, everything and i can see a sense of admiration in both of my mentor’s eyes. Their voice got softened. They were looking more curious to know about the model rather than putting me to trap. Geniune questions started coming and answers were accepted without further discussion.

Now a testing of the working model started taking place. I put the different different values, results were in place. Everything working fine, infact great !!! Now my mentor took away the laptop, started filling the values. He changed whole compostion, negative values, irrelavant values. I was scared, but things remain fine. A sense of relaxation came.

“You did a very broad job, tried to cover everything, good”.

I nodded.

Ok, finally my presentation came to an end after three hours. They both started discussing between them the significance of model, how relevant it is? And by the talks i was concluding that they were serious. It was an appreciation.

Finally i have been told to do some add ons, to prepare some of the things in a better way, to include certain things in report.

In the end, I will just write that its all about the exposure and work that i did here in this organizaion, i will be remembering this training period always. I got most challenging type of work, i can ever expect, what complete Reveleus group is doing, i have been asked to do that, alone, single handedly. This project is gonna be an asset to me and i am sure that this has given me such a thing in hand that wherever i stand and claim that i have done this, people will open their doors for me. I-flex – a very very good experience of professional life. Made me learn many things. First and most important being that enjoy your last year of college, time with your friends. I seriously learned that meaning and another blog is possible explaining that. Another thing is it made me work and read. I used to make my professors, back in institute by manipulating anything. Used to stand for presentation without even having a single look at the slides. Here i have to work and geniunely work. I have to read some thousands of pages and to go through statistics, Excel, Macros and similar things. It made me to work as if i had worked perhaps in JEE time. Also during this time, i got some great friends and ideas that i think will be there with me for my life time.

Kudos to my training !!!