Its getting gloomy day by day. I am feeling a void; And see all my fears go real as i write these first two lines, and i.e. again i am going to write something pessimistic. I always avoided this blogging, once a passion, just because i was afraid that i can be perceived as some morose fella which i am not and even if i am , i don’t wish to be perceived so.

Anyways, when talks have been touched, let me not avoid that. I am feeling a void, not good. Past few weeks have been marked by peculiar melancholic feeling of gloom, disillusion and sceptism. A lot of things happening and i am trying to be rock hard, trying to behave normally but every now and then loosing patience and entering into a fight with my even best buddies. Friends, m sorry, you are not at fault but its me.

I hate to put such things on my blog, it makes me conscious that people will start feeling pity over me. Why should i allow such stuff over my personal webpage. I couldn’t find a better answer other than i wish to. I hate so many things now, my institute, my fellowmates, people, this place called Gwalior, i hate India loosing, i hate my ear having tape, even sometimes i begin doubting myself … better stop now rather than to remorse afterwards … see u later Ms. Blog in better spirits !